When it rains it pours...

(just a short side note before I begin... I think this is the first time i've ever seen that quote used for actual rain. I am about to do a nice long jibba jabba about rain, when usually that quote is used just for bad circumstances. I don't have bad circumstances, i just have challenges)

Rain is wonderful! For the past year or so we've been facing drought possibilities in Pa with only a few sporadic storms throughout the year. But michigan, MICHIGAN is different! Michigan has rain quite often. It really does alot to cheer me up, which is odd, seeing how rainy conditions are supposedly proven to decrease morale or whatever. (Morale is one of my favorite words) This morning I was in one of the BEST moods I've ever been in. I was enjoying myself, even though I had a test and bio and chem. Choir was cancelled, maybe that had something to do with it. But yeah, back to the rain. Not only has it been nice and rainy today, we even have a TORNADO WATCH! Isn't that GREAT? It'd be so cool if i was just sittin here doin' my homework and a tornado pulled me out the window or something. What a great way to die!

I like squirrels.

I never appreciated them until now, but that's most likely because I didn't get to see them every day. I didn't realize that such an important animal has been missing from my own backyard for so long! We need oak trees. I like to watch the squirrels with their goofy little mannerisms. Maybe someday I'd like a squirrel as a pet, though i hear they can wreak havoc on a person's home. I'll just have to give the squirrel its own little squirrely room with no breakables and lots of fake (or maybe real) trees to climb in. Wouldn't that be fun?

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Tuesday night I had prelude class, and the speaker was a woman who had performed with Second City for many years. Being an improvisor myself encouraged me to actually try to stay awake for the presentation, which turned out to be not so difficult. I enjoyed it very much, and even got to participate and tell the whole room about how I had forgotten my toothbrush for the Youth Group road trip last summer and walked a mile or two down the road w/ Jaron to a gas station that had toothbrushes, only to find that the only color they had was PINK.... blech. It was a good story tho.
But there was a very upsetting part to this presentation too. At one point, we were asked to think about an "active moment" in our lives... something that changed our perceptions forever. The example she gave was about seeing her father turn away from her mother when she tried to kiss him, and how that showed her that her parents didn't love each other. When I tried to think back upon my life, I realized that I can't remember any "active moments" in my life. Now some people would just realize that and say, "Oh well, no problem. I just have a bad memory." But to me, it seems more important than that. Aren't these active moments the things that define us as people and make our lives interesting? don't they sculpt us into the people we've become? I believe so, and therefore not being able to remember any of these "active moments" in my life is very disturbing, because I can't remember anything that makes me "me". I have no real recollections of the past. I have no foundation for discovering who I am. Who am I? who AM i? I just don't know.